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So after ritual last night, I felt great. Really happy, really...well, like a lot of little things are starting to make sense on a grander sale. Then this morning, I wake up and feel really kinda blah. But I got to hang out with my friends and go back to the Grove. Chelsea and Mike continued back to Philly, and I spent several hours hanging out and wandering semi-aimlessy around the Grove and Sanctuary. It was a good, kinda brainless thing. Talked to Caryn and Wil and Deirdre about the dedicant's program a bit. Had some time to ponder some stuff, and came back to the thought of the little bits and pieces of stuff falling into place. I left feeling almost giddy. Had coffee from XS when I got back into Mt. Vernon and spent the afternoon bumming around my house, crocheting, doing laundry and stuff.

"My house." I like that thought.

But then a few hours ago, I suddenly felt all blah again, and really lonely.

I don't like feeling lonely.