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badstarSo like, I'm almost 27. I've never dated anyone on a serious basis. Up til 2 years ago, I had never gone out on more than 3 dates with one person without bailing. Then I was sorta-kinda seeing someone for a while and that just kinda ran its course or whatever. I'd say he's still a good friend :-)
Since then, I've gone out with a few people a few times. And a few others just once. The "just once"'s were nice people, but it was like "Okay, you're nice, but spending two hours with you is preferable only to watching baseball- and that's really stretching it." The others were like, coffee here, dinner there, a movie once or twice and suddenly *poof*. There was one girl I went out with a coupe of times last fall/winter, we had a lot of fun. There seemed to be a mutual interest, and she actually asked me out more than I asked her. And then one day...*poof* I was more bummed about that one than the others. At least I never just disappeared on anyone. "I just can't do this right now" or whatever I said was kinda lame. But I gave them the courtesy of letting them know there wouldn't be another date.
And then for a while now, I've either met no one I'm interested in...or suddenly find myself with a crush on someone completely off limits, or just...not such a great idea. Tha's kinda annoying.
But the whole situation in general, I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this. Part of me is totally cool with it- I don't *need* anyone. But part of me isn't so much...I kinda *want* someone. I want to have someone that I can get to know and share some time with. I'm not looking for the rest of my life here. Is a couple of dates and some time hanging out too much to ask?
People complain about rejection. Right now, I don't even have a chance at rejection! (It's kinda sad when rejection is a welcome possibility)
Since then, I've gone out with a few people a few times. And a few others just once. The "just once"'s were nice people, but it was like "Okay, you're nice, but spending two hours with you is preferable only to watching baseball- and that's really stretching it." The others were like, coffee here, dinner there, a movie once or twice and suddenly *poof*. There was one girl I went out with a coupe of times last fall/winter, we had a lot of fun. There seemed to be a mutual interest, and she actually asked me out more than I asked her. And then one day...*poof* I was more bummed about that one than the others. At least I never just disappeared on anyone. "I just can't do this right now" or whatever I said was kinda lame. But I gave them the courtesy of letting them know there wouldn't be another date.
And then for a while now, I've either met no one I'm interested in...or suddenly find myself with a crush on someone completely off limits, or just...not such a great idea. Tha's kinda annoying.
But the whole situation in general, I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this. Part of me is totally cool with it- I don't *need* anyone. But part of me isn't so much...I kinda *want* someone. I want to have someone that I can get to know and share some time with. I'm not looking for the rest of my life here. Is a couple of dates and some time hanging out too much to ask?
People complain about rejection. Right now, I don't even have a chance at rejection! (It's kinda sad when rejection is a welcome possibility)
