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Jan. 12th, 2003 01:03 amGot myself out of babysitting today...another oneof those ties when Chelle assumed I would, never askedme and then got pissed off when I had plans.
When did her lack of planning become my poblem? Oh yeah...it didn't. Ha.
So I was at Borders, looking through some books...found some very interesting stuff. Various books interviewing contemporary pagans...famous and not so famous. Lots of interesting stuff. Some of it made much sense. Actually, much is making sense to me the last few weeks. And I'm not having to try to make sense of it..it just is.
And certain things seem to be attatching themselves to be for the time being....not so much things, but ideas and words. And I don't understand it all....or I think I don't. Somewhere, I do. And I know I do, it's just not on the surface yet. But that's ok.
For example...a song...Tanner burned a cd for me of a bunch of random songs, among them Kyrie by Mr Mister...i've always really liked that song. It was a cool song just to listen to...and then I waw listening t it one day last week, and it started sticking in my head...really sticking...it brings to mind something that I just can't quite put my finger on...something that I understand, but is lurking below the surface of my consciousness.
That's no big deal...songs do that to people all the time...that's what they're there for.
I got a book last week...Amber Wolfe's "Elmental Power" all about using the elements...earth, air, fire, water spirit...lot of visualization excercizes, inluding one with dragons. I sorta have dragons on the brain now. More about that another time I guess.
And then I keep going back to Playa Del Fuego in October..specifically the bonfire, dancing in a blizzard of sparks....not getting burned while everyone else is jumping out of the way...one of the definitve moments of my year.....that I revisit every day....sometimes several times a day...there was so much in that 30 seconds...way more than I will ever be able to comprehed I'm sure...and at the same time, I just get it.
I'm gonna stop making nonsense to everyone but myself now. More to follow in the days to come.
When did her lack of planning become my poblem? Oh yeah...it didn't. Ha.
So I was at Borders, looking through some books...found some very interesting stuff. Various books interviewing contemporary pagans...famous and not so famous. Lots of interesting stuff. Some of it made much sense. Actually, much is making sense to me the last few weeks. And I'm not having to try to make sense of it..it just is.
And certain things seem to be attatching themselves to be for the time being....not so much things, but ideas and words. And I don't understand it all....or I think I don't. Somewhere, I do. And I know I do, it's just not on the surface yet. But that's ok.
For example...a song...Tanner burned a cd for me of a bunch of random songs, among them Kyrie by Mr Mister...i've always really liked that song. It was a cool song just to listen to...and then I waw listening t it one day last week, and it started sticking in my head...really sticking...it brings to mind something that I just can't quite put my finger on...something that I understand, but is lurking below the surface of my consciousness.
That's no big deal...songs do that to people all the time...that's what they're there for.
I got a book last week...Amber Wolfe's "Elmental Power" all about using the elements...earth, air, fire, water spirit...lot of visualization excercizes, inluding one with dragons. I sorta have dragons on the brain now. More about that another time I guess.
And then I keep going back to Playa Del Fuego in October..specifically the bonfire, dancing in a blizzard of sparks....not getting burned while everyone else is jumping out of the way...one of the definitve moments of my year.....that I revisit every day....sometimes several times a day...there was so much in that 30 seconds...way more than I will ever be able to comprehed I'm sure...and at the same time, I just get it.
I'm gonna stop making nonsense to everyone but myself now. More to follow in the days to come.
