Unblinking

Woohoo, so I got an email back from Joie today about reiki I next week. Payment arranements made and stuff. $75 plus an energy exchange sometime at a later date.

Now I need to do something about this fog I'm in...seems I'm locked in a staring match with the element of water...and it's doing everythign it can to make me blink. It's not that I don't want to....I'm just not ready to. And I dont know exactly waht form that blink needs to take.

Well, I know one thing I need to do. I need to tell him how I feel.

Besides that, there's other stuff that I just don't know about. What's up with having flood dreams all week....especially the one this morning that really knocked me for a good one..

I dreamed that Alex never died. Even though there was still a funeral and all...And I didn't find out til like, now.

I was on vacation with her family, and she a there, and towards the end of the dream I got really confused and started wondering why she was there since she died 6 years ago....When I asked her she told me that he never died, they cured her cancer, she was all ok. She said that they never told anyone because they didn't want to upset people.

And then there was the part about being on top of a tower, and the world was flooded up to where I was....going up the elevator of the tower, I had some serious vertigo, and I think I was floating at some point. Felt like the tower was shaking, but when I got to the top, it wasn't. It was windy, there was a very large quantity of water surrounding me, as if the tower was sunk into the ocean with just the tip sticking up, and a better part of it had no railing around it.

tecie called me tody just as I was remembering all this, and I was a total fog...couldn't carry an intelligent conversation. After that, I felt totaly lost for several hours. My kitchen was completely foreign to me. It was sad.

I need to figure this mess out.