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Chelle called me the other day. Tarna's pregnant again. Who's Tarna? Oh yeah...stepsister. And then....well, that was it. I was confused. Aside from the news, what am I supposed to say. Chelle said I didn't sound very happy to talk to her...I said I was just surprised that she called. Response "Well can't I call my sister up just to say hi sometime?" Yeah sure...I guess so? So I'm trying to decide if this is supposed to be a sign that Chelle's aquiring some semblance of maturity...or what. And I keep hearing in the background "Who's on the phone? Who's that? Renee? Renee who? I don't know a Renee. Renee forgot all about me." So maybe my grandmother talked her into calling me so she could do that. And THEN Chelle decides that I should talk to Grammy (Chelle Insists she hadn't been drinking, but Grammy sounds otherwise...)

I can't stand the thought of the sound of the word "Grammy" but what the hell do I call her? I called her "Grandma" once or twice when I was little...got the riot act for that one. Same for calling Gradnfather "Grandpa". I was informed that "Grandma" and "Grandpa" were "rude and disrespectful. Uh...ok. So somehow, I started calling Grammy "Grammy" and being that I'm the oldest kid in the family, it stuck. Incidentally, I have a cousin who was the same age as I am who also called his grandmother "Grammy"

No...I didn't forget about you. Unfortunately, I can't forget about you. You ensured that years ago. I really just prefer not to talk to you if I can avoid it. I don't like avoiding people...butt it's either that or one day it's all going to come out as to just WHY I prefer not to talk to you. And much as I'd love to let that happen on one hand, I know that you're going to deny everything and say you never did anything to hurt anyone and no one ever appreciates what you do ad fricken nauseum. And it'll hurt me a million times more than the truth could ever hurt you because you've got your cloak of self-righteousness and denial to keep you safe from reality. So we're just going to stick with me talking to you as little as possible. For my own good.

It's alll fun and games until it backfires on you, isn't it?

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[liritsvoice.livejournal.com]

she sounds really twisted. yeesh. you do what you have to do to keep some semblance of sanity, and *dont* you ever feel guilty about it. i've had similar situations in my family, as you know. sometimes you gotta let your relatives reap the consequences of their actions/abuse. if that means you cant talk to them for a while, well, they kinda created that for themselves, and they have themselves to blame.

'grandma' and 'grandpa' was just fine for my moms parents. they loved it. my dads parents were 'bubi' and 'zadi.' no drama there.