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Oct. 9th, 2003 11:34 amIn less than 2 months, I'll be 25. Hard to imagine. 6 1/2 years out of high school. When I graduated, I couldn't even fathom being 25. It was just so...far away. Not old or anything, just beyond my comprehension. And now I'm almost there, and why is it a big deal? It's not really. 25 is just another arbitrary number...like 18 or 21. But somewhere in my mind, I'm still 17. Not that I'd be 17 again for all the film in Kodak...but in a lot of ways, I'm still a clueless kid.
Life is insane. I don't mean my life right now (well...of course it is) Life in general. The way things happen. A year agol if anyone had told me that I'd be moving to Baltimore, I'd have laughed. A year ago, I was just realizing that I realiztically could have moved to Rhode Island. Another few weeks and I'd found a place to live and was looking up job prospects. Then that became not possible. And I didn't move to Rhode Island. And for a time, it looked like I would have needed to move out of my parents' house on a minute's notice...and that's when![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
seaya first offered to let me stay with her...and then things calmed down...but I decided to keep the plans to move here anyway. And in June, I did move...and I got a job. And i moved again. And I transfered to another store.
So much has happened in the last few months. It's been a real roller coaster. Emotional. Seriously.
To anyone who's been there when I was traumatized by a nightmare, been subjected to my late-night moments of doubt, emotional outbursts, or moments of bitterness and paper-cut-and-lemon-juice sarcasm, if you've let me sleep on your sofa, cry on your shoulder or volunteered to rescue me at a moment's notice, told me it was going to be ok when I was sure it wasn't, if you kept your arms around me while I fought off running away from you...or even if all you could do was stand by and watch helplessly from a distance while I broke down as my world fell to the floor again and again, you were still there...thank you.
A thought with many relevancies...I don't know how or why many things have happened. The best I can figure out is that sometimes when things are right, it all just clicks. And I guess that's all that matters.
Life is insane. I don't mean my life right now (well...of course it is) Life in general. The way things happen. A year agol if anyone had told me that I'd be moving to Baltimore, I'd have laughed. A year ago, I was just realizing that I realiztically could have moved to Rhode Island. Another few weeks and I'd found a place to live and was looking up job prospects. Then that became not possible. And I didn't move to Rhode Island. And for a time, it looked like I would have needed to move out of my parents' house on a minute's notice...and that's when
seaya first offered to let me stay with her...and then things calmed down...but I decided to keep the plans to move here anyway. And in June, I did move...and I got a job. And i moved again. And I transfered to another store. So much has happened in the last few months. It's been a real roller coaster. Emotional. Seriously.
To anyone who's been there when I was traumatized by a nightmare, been subjected to my late-night moments of doubt, emotional outbursts, or moments of bitterness and paper-cut-and-lemon-juice sarcasm, if you've let me sleep on your sofa, cry on your shoulder or volunteered to rescue me at a moment's notice, told me it was going to be ok when I was sure it wasn't, if you kept your arms around me while I fought off running away from you...or even if all you could do was stand by and watch helplessly from a distance while I broke down as my world fell to the floor again and again, you were still there...thank you.
A thought with many relevancies...I don't know how or why many things have happened. The best I can figure out is that sometimes when things are right, it all just clicks. And I guess that's all that matters.
