The worst Alex dream yet...

Seriously, I want these dreams to stop.

I don't remember the beginning, but as in all the others, I found out that Alex was still alive. This time though, she didn't tell me to go away and pretend she really was dead. We didn't talk much- there were so many questions I wanted to ask her, but was never able to. Somehow I found out that she'd been living at Hershey Medical Center for the past ten years...still had cancer though appeared perfectly healthy and fine. For some reason I was still living with my parents in this dream, and I had to go home at one point. I never got to ask how long she was home from the hospital, so the next day I went back to her house to ask, and she was packing up to go back. I tried to ask what her phone number was at the hospital, but her mother jumped in and told me that the phone had been removed from her room to keep idiots and fools from calling. I tried to ask for her address there, but I never got it. I went home and talked to my mother, who seemed confused, but didn't have much to say. I went back to Alex's house, she was in a car with her sister and brother, her parents were moving some other cars around. I kept trying to ask questions that never got answered.

I don't remember anything after that. Only that this one was so hyper-real that I had no idea I was dreaming.

Ionian Song

Just because we have broken their statues,
just because we have driven them out of their temples,
the gods did not die because of this at all.
O Ionian land, it is you they still love,
it is you their souls still remember.
When an August morning dawns upon you
a vigor from their life moves through your air;
and at times an ethereal youthful figure,
indistinct, in rapid stride,
crosses over your hills.

Constantine P. Cavafy