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It amazes me how my thoughts jump all over the place and my mood completely changes in a second sometimes. It only ever really does that when I allow myself to entertain certain memories and thoughts. And it's weird. Because I think that there's a certain level of me that I keep covered with a thin film of obscurity, because I'm afraid of...I dunno, something. It's not like, dark scary corners of my mind and unpleasant bits of my personality scary. It's like there's this bright, blinding larger-than-life piece of me, I don't really know how to explain what's going through my mind right now, but I feel like I'm peeling off my clothing and skin, just that...exposed.

Oh. Damn. I was afraid of this.

I'm going to sleep now.