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[badstar]

Didja ever want to write about something on LJ, but be afraid that someone would see it- be it the person that it was about, or someone that knew them that would tell them? Even if you made a filter. Even if you made it a completely private post, somehow it would get out?


No, this has nothing to do with my roommates or the grove or anything currently going on in my life. It's not about anything bad. Hell, it might even be a good thing if it got out. I don't know. But I don't want to know right now.

Yes, I'm being vague. Not only vague, but also very silly.

But...this is my journal and it's on my mind.

Comments

[falnfenix]

yes, i've been there...it's terrifying, to a degree. i can't say how many private entries i've deleted for fear of the subject finding out.

[chronarchy.livejournal.com]

"Never put anything on the internet that you wouldn't want your grandmother to read" is a statement I have long lived by. I don't use private or friends-locked posts because I figure if I can't say it to everyone, I shouldn't say it.

Oddly, this has led to less self-censoring and a more open feeling about what I post. I simply worry less about consequences now.

Good luck with your dilemma. Another option is to contact your clergy and talk it out with them. At least then you can get it out, and you'll be assured that it won't go further.

[purplelover13.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[fuego.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh...it's nothing like that, I wouldn't call it a dilemma so much as oh, geez, I don't know, just something I've been pondering for a long time. It's not problematic....and it's definitely not serious enough to bug Caryn about, she's got more than enough to worry about right now.

A large part of it really is just silliness on my part. I think about things too much and focus on one little "what if" and then it takes on a life of its own, all the while, I'm telling myself how silly I'm being.

[fuego.livejournal.com]

Funny thing is, I never even use private entries at all- I mean, I think I've made like 3 in the entire time I've had this journal, which is like...6 years now.

[chronarchy.livejournal.com]

"it's definitely not serious enough to bug Caryn about, she's got more than enough to worry about right now."

You know, we don't mind :) I hear that a lot, actually, that something isn't serious enough to bug me with, but it's not a question of seriousness, really. :)

It's hard to explain from my end of it all, but I think that's the best I can do at this moment.

Anyway, good luck with it, whatever it is :)

[fuego.livejournal.com]

It's hard to explain from my end of it all, but I think that's the best I can do at this moment.

Nah, I understand. I'm the same way when it comes to other people coming to me for things. But for myself going to someone else...whole other story. If something is really serious, that's one thing. If it comes up in conversation, not a big deal. But to go to someone else and say "Hey, I've got this big long rambling train of thought about a series of past events I want to talk about that is probably inconsequential at this point in my life but I don't know and I don't know if I want to just ignore it..." not so much.

By the way it was nice to actually meet you, albeit briefly, a few weeks ago.

[misswitch1369.livejournal.com]

I'm not saying anything anymore. I put my foot in the crap-pile once already, not doing it again. So, don't worry about me.

[fuego.livejournal.com]

This has nothing to do with that, I promise. I'm not worried about you at all. This is about some stuff that's been stuck in my mind for eh, no fewer than four years now.