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Sep. 4th, 2007 01:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badstarOne of the things that came up last week when I was in PA (came up in my mind anyway, and has been coming up now and then and I keep talking about it) is that I can't work in tech support forever. And then I went and visited a gallery owned in part by one of my former art teachers, and I just wanted to cry. Because my work wasn't on those walls. Or on any walls. And I can only blame myself for not producing any work to put on any walls.
I need to stop talking about this and do something. (Yeah, how many times have I said that?)
The fact is that all of my high school art teachers as well as the professors of the painting and photography classes that I took in college said that I have talent. Once upon a time in 2001 someone saw my photography and considered it good enough to show my work exclusively on their café walls for a couple of months. On September 11th 2001, I sold one of my photographs- to the owner of the largest art gallery in Lancaster who then invited me to show more of my work in her gallery during Artwalk. In high school I won a couple of awards for painting and photography. During my junior year of high school, I had a portfolio review at the MICA and was told that I would have a decent chance of being accepted (I never applied. Early in my senior year, Maryland was suddenly far too close to Pennsylvania and I didn't apply anywhere closer than Vanderbilt.) The fact is, whatever talent I have, I'm wasting it.
I'd like to avoid the starving artist cliché, and supplies cost money. Since I realized earlier in the summer that I would not be able to start taking any college classes til the spring, I started pondering what the hell I was going to do. Well...I'm going to get my CVE certification through work at some point this fall or early winter. I'm going to start taking some colelge classes. I have no idea what I'm going to study, but since I'm not going to be going full-time, it's going to take me longer. I'll start with the foundation classes and figure out a course of study and get educated in somethign that I don't entirely hate that will allow me to continue to pay rent, buy groceries and supplies, and I'm just going to have to start painting. It's really all there is to it. And I need to stop talking about it and just do it. I did go out and get the sketchbook and some drawing pencils and stuff back in the spring...I know they're around somewhere in a box. That's a beginning. I have some definite ideas in my head that I want to paint. (I was trying to draw one out when I bought the sketchbook)
I'll figure it out, somehow....
I need to stop talking about this and do something. (Yeah, how many times have I said that?)
The fact is that all of my high school art teachers as well as the professors of the painting and photography classes that I took in college said that I have talent. Once upon a time in 2001 someone saw my photography and considered it good enough to show my work exclusively on their café walls for a couple of months. On September 11th 2001, I sold one of my photographs- to the owner of the largest art gallery in Lancaster who then invited me to show more of my work in her gallery during Artwalk. In high school I won a couple of awards for painting and photography. During my junior year of high school, I had a portfolio review at the MICA and was told that I would have a decent chance of being accepted (I never applied. Early in my senior year, Maryland was suddenly far too close to Pennsylvania and I didn't apply anywhere closer than Vanderbilt.) The fact is, whatever talent I have, I'm wasting it.
I'd like to avoid the starving artist cliché, and supplies cost money. Since I realized earlier in the summer that I would not be able to start taking any college classes til the spring, I started pondering what the hell I was going to do. Well...I'm going to get my CVE certification through work at some point this fall or early winter. I'm going to start taking some colelge classes. I have no idea what I'm going to study, but since I'm not going to be going full-time, it's going to take me longer. I'll start with the foundation classes and figure out a course of study and get educated in somethign that I don't entirely hate that will allow me to continue to pay rent, buy groceries and supplies, and I'm just going to have to start painting. It's really all there is to it. And I need to stop talking about it and just do it. I did go out and get the sketchbook and some drawing pencils and stuff back in the spring...I know they're around somewhere in a box. That's a beginning. I have some definite ideas in my head that I want to paint. (I was trying to draw one out when I bought the sketchbook)
I'll figure it out, somehow....
