Seeing myself

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When I picture myself, I'm almost always surrounded by bright light. Bright, blinding, cold light. Like stadium lights. Sometimes I'm standing at one end of a very long hallway in this light. Other times, I'm laying down in grass outside in the same light, curled up with a white hooded sweatshirt pulled over my head

On rare occasions, I see myself standing under an orange streetlight near a bridge, in foggy, drizzly weather.

Sometimes I feel very tall...and I mean, I have a physical sensation of being a foot or more taller than I really am.

I don't know where these come from. That's how I see myself.