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Oct. 1st, 2007 11:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badstarI'm feeling very cranky/angsty/snarky. It's probably a good thing I'm at work because if I were home, I might just try to pick a fight with the roommates because I feel like picking a fight with someone right now. And that would be a bad thing because they haven't done anything to deserve it.
Why don't I just talk about what's on my mind? Well, for the moment there's not much else to say about the DP/CTP thing...and I'm actually feeling a lot less doubtful of myself now that I know where I stand. As for the other thing on my mind...well, it's sort of a two-part thing of which the main issue, some might see as a huge thing, but in the end, for me anyway it's not really a big deal. It's actually a related sort of side-issue that's really getting to me. That's the one where I have to tread lightly and proceed with caution (if at all) because it's one of those things where, if I were stupid, could have rather epically bad impact.
Leaving well enough alone is the safe option, but is that what I want to do? Is "safe" the right thing to do? I don't know. But for the moment, that's what I'm sticking with til I've had some more time to consider my thoughts.
And for the record, I know, I could easily talk to many of you fine folks reading about stuff on my mind...since one person has already emailed me and asked if I don't trust anyone...
I'm not dancing around in tightly-woven circles because I don't trust anyone to talk about what's on my mind, I trust many of you to some extent or another, there are a few that I would trust with my life...but this whole mess- or me not divulging details of what's on my mind anyway- comes down to one thing: ladies and gentlemen, I am stupidly superstitious when it comes to a few things. In this case, I've got it in my mind that if I let said thoughts escape my mind in the form of words, then no matter what, the worst possible outcome will result. I'm not writing more in friends-only or filtered or even private posts that only I can see. I'm not talking about it to anyone on AIM, or offline. Everyone is as in the dark about what's on my mind as anyone else.
I will try to keep the angsty stuff minimal from here on out. However, if I do pick a fight with anyone, I will recount it in glorious detail :-P
Why don't I just talk about what's on my mind? Well, for the moment there's not much else to say about the DP/CTP thing...and I'm actually feeling a lot less doubtful of myself now that I know where I stand. As for the other thing on my mind...well, it's sort of a two-part thing of which the main issue, some might see as a huge thing, but in the end, for me anyway it's not really a big deal. It's actually a related sort of side-issue that's really getting to me. That's the one where I have to tread lightly and proceed with caution (if at all) because it's one of those things where, if I were stupid, could have rather epically bad impact.
Leaving well enough alone is the safe option, but is that what I want to do? Is "safe" the right thing to do? I don't know. But for the moment, that's what I'm sticking with til I've had some more time to consider my thoughts.
And for the record, I know, I could easily talk to many of you fine folks reading about stuff on my mind...since one person has already emailed me and asked if I don't trust anyone...
I'm not dancing around in tightly-woven circles because I don't trust anyone to talk about what's on my mind, I trust many of you to some extent or another, there are a few that I would trust with my life...but this whole mess- or me not divulging details of what's on my mind anyway- comes down to one thing: ladies and gentlemen, I am stupidly superstitious when it comes to a few things. In this case, I've got it in my mind that if I let said thoughts escape my mind in the form of words, then no matter what, the worst possible outcome will result. I'm not writing more in friends-only or filtered or even private posts that only I can see. I'm not talking about it to anyone on AIM, or offline. Everyone is as in the dark about what's on my mind as anyone else.
I will try to keep the angsty stuff minimal from here on out. However, if I do pick a fight with anyone, I will recount it in glorious detail :-P
