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Nov. 13th, 2007 04:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badstarThe more I look at these essays, the more I realize that no matter how I try to add to them to include the requested points, there's no real way I can do it truthfully and without adding in space-filler fluff.
The kindreds essay asked for my understanding and relationship to each of the kindreds. I described exactly that. Apparently the ancestors section is "too specific" and I need to be more broad and include things like cultural heroes and the like that are no longer in this world that i look to as role models. I have a hard enough time with that with people who are still kicking around.
Dammit, I can't honestly add any of that. Sure would be nice if I could but I can't. Unfortunately, I'm not one of those people who can just plug and play ancestors when my own don't even register on the radar. Do you want my relationship and understanding or do you just want to give me another question and I'll write an appropriate essay? This isn't higher standards. This is defining my relationship for me and expecting me to write to your preconception of what my relationship should be.
And then there's the nature awareness essay. How do I "build the connection"? Hell if I know. I don't. It's just there. I have this affinity for city environment. I have for as long as I can remember. I'm not one of those people who consider the earth to be my mother. I don't worship the earth.
I don't know what to do here.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
chronarchy do you have any ideas, suggestions, words of uh...anything? Am I completely crazy to be afraid that this is going to disqualify me from the CTP? I don't want to write something and have it come across as insincere. I don't want tow rite something and have yet more questions come back to me. I want to finish this thing and move on.
The kindreds essay asked for my understanding and relationship to each of the kindreds. I described exactly that. Apparently the ancestors section is "too specific" and I need to be more broad and include things like cultural heroes and the like that are no longer in this world that i look to as role models. I have a hard enough time with that with people who are still kicking around.
Dammit, I can't honestly add any of that. Sure would be nice if I could but I can't. Unfortunately, I'm not one of those people who can just plug and play ancestors when my own don't even register on the radar. Do you want my relationship and understanding or do you just want to give me another question and I'll write an appropriate essay? This isn't higher standards. This is defining my relationship for me and expecting me to write to your preconception of what my relationship should be.
And then there's the nature awareness essay. How do I "build the connection"? Hell if I know. I don't. It's just there. I have this affinity for city environment. I have for as long as I can remember. I'm not one of those people who consider the earth to be my mother. I don't worship the earth.
I don't know what to do here.
chronarchy do you have any ideas, suggestions, words of uh...anything? Am I completely crazy to be afraid that this is going to disqualify me from the CTP? I don't want to write something and have it come across as insincere. I don't want tow rite something and have yet more questions come back to me. I want to finish this thing and move on.
