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Feb. 5th, 2008 01:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badstarOkay, I figured out how to turn off the heating in here. And I have a cold, caffeinated beverage. My stomach isn't quite in the same knots as it was a few minutes ago, and my head is considerably clearer. I don't feel a grating need to kick or scream, and the feelings of doubt and questioning are still there, but I've got some breathing room from them. I still want to go home and sleep.
Unfortunately, all this tells me is that I just very nearly thought myself into a panic attack. Brilliant. How fucking brilliant of me. I've done that once or twice before.
Saying this with a reasonably clear mind right now: Am I really as sure as I say I am? Seriously, am I making a mistake? If I were truly sure of everything, would I have gotten myself so upset? Or did I get so upset because it matters so much?
Edit: Dammit. the upset, panicky brain is setting back in. Okay...how to get my mind off this....
Edit^2: Calm again. Annnnnd Tiffany's gone to lunch and wandered away. Bonus!
Unfortunately, all this tells me is that I just very nearly thought myself into a panic attack. Brilliant. How fucking brilliant of me. I've done that once or twice before.
Saying this with a reasonably clear mind right now: Am I really as sure as I say I am? Seriously, am I making a mistake? If I were truly sure of everything, would I have gotten myself so upset? Or did I get so upset because it matters so much?
Edit: Dammit. the upset, panicky brain is setting back in. Okay...how to get my mind off this....
Edit^2: Calm again. Annnnnd Tiffany's gone to lunch and wandered away. Bonus!
