I've spent a lot of brain-hours over the last few months hung up on the question of whether or not I still belong in ADF. I've been feeling very teenage-angsty-no-one-understands-me about it (this may very well not be true, but it is how I feel.). I might or might not write more later today or something. I've started a dozen posts on this in the past and never finished any of them.
The only thing I've really decide on is that I'm going to renew my grove membership, and since ADF is part of that, I'll renew my membership while I'm deciding what to do. But really, I don't know and it's bothering me.
I read somewhere that if you can't decide what you want, it's probably sleep. Those sound like very wise words right about now.
The only thing I've really decide on is that I'm going to renew my grove membership, and since ADF is part of that, I'll renew my membership while I'm deciding what to do. But really, I don't know and it's bothering me.
I read somewhere that if you can't decide what you want, it's probably sleep. Those sound like very wise words right about now.
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Date: 2008-12-18 04:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-12-18 04:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-12-18 08:31 pm (UTC)We have a saying here: "Keep the ArchDruid healthy and very far away..."
But, OTOH, we're >>not<< a Pagan Fellowship - the Rules of the ADF "game" are rather specific and many might say limiting. But them's the rules. If you do not feel attracted to NeoPagan, Scholarly (and respectful of scholarship), Polytheist, IndoEuropean, semi-hierarchical, congrgational (with some allowance for solitary) style religion, then yup, ADF isn't for you. No fault to you and the local Grove should allow you to join in on rituals as you desire.
That said, you only need to worry about that stuff for public worship - you can be Wiccan, Setian, Hopi or Egyptian in your private worship and no one in ADF would comment. (Well, they might wonder why you're bothering with ADF if your Setian - but you'd never be denied access to things.)
Good luck on your journey!
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Date: 2008-12-18 09:26 pm (UTC)I don't hate ADF, and while there have been things I've had issues with in the past, I've always been able to get through them. There are some things that I can point at and say "yeah, it would be easier if it weren't for this, this and this." But I've worked with them for four years now and at the end of the day, it's an occasional frustration but not the end of the world. As far as what specifically is wrong...I honestly don't know. It's me I know that much...a lot of stuff happened early in the year that one minute I was starting the clergy training program, and then suddenly...I realized I was all wrong.
As for the local grove...well, I'm kinda on the Witan so I would hope they would allow me to join in rituals :-P
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Date: 2008-12-18 09:43 pm (UTC)I personally feel very drawn to the way ADF exists in a sacred tension between the mystical and scholarly, and I think a lot of the issues people have with ADF is either misunderstandings or projection of their past religious baggage. (no I don't mean you, just people I have spoken to)
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Date: 2008-12-19 12:51 pm (UTC)