Everything...Nothing...Yes.

So I have paint and a working on moving stuff out of my room. And I have to scrape and prime the window before i can paint that. Ick. But whatever. Fred's pretty jazzed about the idea of painting and making the place look nicer. Even if I am painting my room red and orange. Gonna paint the bathroom yellow...maybe use some of my orange for the trim. Scrubbed out most of the mildew from the bathroom walls and ceiling today. Ick. And the medicine cabinet was pretty horrifying. And discovered yet again how much banks truly suck...now they charge you to use another bank's ATM just to check your balance. Lovely. But the signs still say they charge you if you WITHDRAW CASH. They haven't heard the last of me. Mmmmm but I have hot brownies and vanilla ice cream. and tomorrow I'm going to go find the Michael's Crafts in either Arundel Mills Mall or Ellicott City. Whichever looks easier to get to. So then I can get those fabulous posters to color with the super-complicated celtic knot patterns...and tomorrow night I will go to Brewer's Art and see my friends *happiness* And someday soon i'll have a computer of my very own...Tanner has an extra one around gathering dust, so as soon as he gets enthused about the idea of loading an operating system and photoshop onto it...whenever that is. No big deal...I'm using Vergil's laptop for the moment. I told Tanner that if he gives me Linux, I'll have to hurt him.

Talked to T-Mobile today about having my phone switched back on....soon as I pay my bill off plus the $200 cancelation fee...erg. BUT that $200 is immediately creditedc to my account...so that's 4 months that I don't have to worry about paying the bill...because it's already paid. So hopefully by the end of the month I'll have my cell phone back....still haven't decided...to keep the old number or to get a new Baltimore number. Doesn't matter that much. Does it?

So around 4 this morning, I was hit with a strong wave of emotional I don't know what- which was still there when I got up today. I felt like I needed to cry but couldn't...and like something was stuck in my stomach, under my ribs. There are a couple of people that I really wish I could talk to right now. The feeling is gone...well not so much gone as diminished, but not totally. I don't know. It's weird. And then there's...let's just say somethign else...that I think is a BIG factor in this little thing here, neveryoumind what because I'm not talking about it right now, I'm not even sure about it....I just *think*. And it may also be nothing. I guess I'll find out.

I think I'm gonna go read now.