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I hate watching a friend hurt and not being able to do anyhitng about it. It just shreds me inside.


My father went into the hospital Sunday with chest pain and his left arm alternating between shooting pain and numbness. Turned out to be 2 different things...high blood pressure and a torn rotator cuff. I found out that he went into the hospital Sunday yet, but it didn't even really occur to me til Monday to call. What's more, it doesn't bother me in the least bit that I didn't think to call til Monday. It also doesn't bother me that my father is that inconsequential to me. I probably should be much more bothered by this...but I'm not.

But I'm All Happpy And Stuff Because....

...I went to Barnes and Noble last night wandering around, and on a lark i asked the desk guy to look up a book for me- The Decline And Fall Of Practically Everybody by Will Cuppy...it was out of print, but it's back in print...and not only that, but it's a bargain book! Woohoo! So I ordered a copy. I was feeling extra lucky, so I asked him to look up Spirits Of The Fire by Jaq Hawkins...which was also out of print. SCORE! It's also back in print. Ordered that as well. both should be in within 3-8 business days. So I ordered that too. That's my birthday present to me. That and I gotta get a scarf and gloves. I remember seeing a scarf and gloves crocheted of the same friingy-multi-colored silk stuff as the bag I got at the Tibetan Treasure stand down at Arundel Mills...I *might* even consider braving the place again in the next few weeks.

Damn, I'm gonna be 25 in a week. Remember my party on Decembr 13th folks!!!!!!!

I get more phone time today at work. 4 hours. Woohoo and stuff. Yesterday....2 hours, 3 calls. Pure pain...though today, I don't *have* to actually take any calls, I could just listen and log it all in the computer, I'll probably ask Andy (my mentor) to let me talk and try troubleshootigng at least the first few before I start playing with the logging stuff...and then I'll probably just listen from there, not sure if i'm ready to put the two together yet.

No matter what, this is WAY better than Rite Aid. and the coffee pot is just around the corner at alll times. Lunch break almost over.

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Dammit. Why is it that the only time I even vaguely want to be around my family is the only time I can't? I had to work today, I have to work first thing Friday morning. Looks like I'm spending Thanksgiving alone, with no turkey. And mom I guess just assumed when I talked to her earlier that I had grand plans with people down here. Why can't I just be consistently adverse to seeing my family?