Rounding Out The Weekend...

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I made a stop at the Baltimore Black Gay Pride after dropping off rent at the post office on saturday afternoon, since the Interfaith Fairness Coalition had a table there. The event seemed to be mostly over- there weren't many folks, and no one who wasn't working there came into the room where the table was set up. The subject of writing came up, and I ended up showing Charles some of the hymns I've been writing. Apparently he was pretty impressed. He said he wants to try to figure out something for the 2009 Ecumenicon conference that would allow me to read some of them as part of a workshop or something.

I'm seriously thinking that I want to go to Ecumenicon this year coming u- there's going to be an intensive series on Norse and Saami religion- the Norse is a recurring thing, Jane Sibley teaches it. But this time it's going to be partially sessions on Norse, and partially on the Saami...that part is going to be taught by someone who I've met, but whose name I can't think off for the life of me- she's from Lapland and is working on her master's degree in anthropology, focusing no Saami religion.

The fifth season of 24 has been playing sometime in the middle of the night on Saturday and chironcentaur decided that I need to see it, so she tapes it since I'm in bed by the time it comes on (Someone needs to go to sleep, otherwise we might never get to the grove on Sundays....lol) I've seen the first two episodes, so far I'm impressed. (I've seen most of the first and sixth seasons, none of the rest til now.)

And...for the first time since I first tripped over Cedarlight Grove, I will not be participating in a high day ritual. (Okay, technically, the second time. But Winter Solstice 2004 was only a few weeks after I first found the grove, didn't know about the ritual until it was too late to ask off work.) So I've gone 21 rituals where I've been present and participated. I won't be participating this time. I will not be spectating. I might not be at the grove at all, but I haven't decided yet. (If I don't go at all, I might very well wander on up to Albany for the sectional conference at ADH.)

All I really know right now is that this ritual is not one for me to be part of. That was indicated to me very clearly while meditating earlier yesterday. And I'm pretty sure I will not be present for Imbolc, after last year. I'm really not sure about Yule yet. We shall see, but I might very well have a three-ritual hiatus. I think I'm starting to get a vague sense of an underlying current and I understand why it's happening, and I'm pretty sure it's only temporary, but I'm kinda bummed out to not be part of ritual. I could probably be in the sanctuary and observe, but I can't. I cannot be a spectator in religious practice.

There will, however, be a Puanepsia ritual at the grove next weekend. It will be very small...just grove folks and I'm expecting one, maybe two besides me. I'll be shocked if there are three or more others (but will never complain!!).

This is the part where I kinda hide my eyes- I'm really really nervous about the idea of doing such a tiny ritual. I think I've said this before. I've had plenty of experience with largeish group rituals...20-30, even 60 or more and I am fine- public speaking, not an issue. Group ritual, not an issue.

Give me a tiny group and oh my various gods, where's the door???? I'm rarely self-conscious. This would be one of those rare times.

In other news, we are getting a new fridge and more things repaired in the house this week. Yay!!!!

Comments

[shockwave.livejournal.com]

You make me excited if you come up for sectionals. :)

[fuego.livejournal.com]

awesome. I haven't decided yet, I will let you know. And even if I don't hit sectionals, I might very well just wander on up in that direction in the near future anyway.