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Nov. 27th, 2007 02:44 ambeing really close to the fire saturday night when the wind shifted, and suddenly finding myself in a blizzard of sparks...and watching it all swirl around me while some other people jumped back getting burned, but realizing that it was all either going around me or burning out before it hit me, one of the most amazingly beutiful, truly awesome thigns i've ever experienced...
I just found this riffling through some old posts from 2002...this is a bit from the post I made right after the Fall Playa Del Fuego. It was the one just a few days after my grandfather died when I just couldn't stand to stay around the house. That was one of the best burns ever but this moment I was writing about...was one of the happiest, most amazing moments of my life...I remember this, it was like the world was moving in slow motion...if there was any question before that of me having some inexplicable connection to fire, it was all gone in that moment.
I was shaky at the time on what exactly I believe about the gods and who they are...but this..oh, who needed gods when I had this? It seems a bit absurd now- just a bit, not a lot.
But then, there, in that moment, it was bliss. Unbreakable happiness. For just a minute, there was me a little too close to a bonfire and a million sparks whipping around me. It was once in a lifetime, I was in the right place at the right moment where the forces of nature combined in just the right way and I was there in the middle of it.
Dammit, yes. The memory makes me cry.
I just found this riffling through some old posts from 2002...this is a bit from the post I made right after the Fall Playa Del Fuego. It was the one just a few days after my grandfather died when I just couldn't stand to stay around the house. That was one of the best burns ever but this moment I was writing about...was one of the happiest, most amazing moments of my life...I remember this, it was like the world was moving in slow motion...if there was any question before that of me having some inexplicable connection to fire, it was all gone in that moment.
I was shaky at the time on what exactly I believe about the gods and who they are...but this..oh, who needed gods when I had this? It seems a bit absurd now- just a bit, not a lot.
But then, there, in that moment, it was bliss. Unbreakable happiness. For just a minute, there was me a little too close to a bonfire and a million sparks whipping around me. It was once in a lifetime, I was in the right place at the right moment where the forces of nature combined in just the right way and I was there in the middle of it.
Dammit, yes. The memory makes me cry.
